Bit by bit, I’m trying to pull myself back into confidence and motivation. I’m trying to push down any doubt and anxiety and do things. So far I’ve written down several big projects and set deadlines for them, with one big overall deadline of the beginning of the school year. Why then? Because I’m hoping to start grad school, and I’ll need the time after that to focus on school work.
I’ve created deadlines at the beginning of each month, from May 1 through September 1 (with the note that the September 1 deadline is actually when school starts, since I don’t know the exact start date — though it will likely be at the end of August). I have deadlines for business projects and deadlines for cleaning projects, and, yes, they overlap. But that’s simply because some of my “free time” is more conducive to one project than another (especially when I take energy levels into consideration).
The first deadline is, of course May 1, and it is quickly approaching. What’s on the list? For business-type projects, I am finally finishing up the A Life You Want website. I’ve even announced on the site that it will be launching on May 1, to hold me accountable (not that many, if any, people visit the site, but still…). A Life You Want has remained on my to do list, partly because I have a book out there that coordinates with it, and partly because I think it’s important and has potential to help people. But I want to see it DONE! While I do plan on posting on the blog moving forward, the overall site will remain mostly static, so it will not require much work once it’s up and running. So that will be a big relief once it’s finally completed. For cleaning projects, I am finishing up my kitchen (the big stuff — I realize that dishes never completely get finished, and I will have to keep up with regular maintenance), and I am deep-cleaning my bathrooms.
Other deadlines are as follows:
- June 1: Apply for grad school (the deadline for the fall semester is June 1), and clean the library and playroom. I also have Usborne Books & More paperwork to take care of.
- July 1: Get Children’s Reading World up and running (I’ve made a list of what this entails), and clean the living room (if you saw the state of my living room, you would understand why this gets its own month!).
- August 1: Update Creative Endeavors inventory and web presence, and clean/create the basement playroom.
- September 1: Clean the rest of the basement
Of course there are other important tasks that need to be handled along the way, like potty training Emily and figuring out her preschool, signing up both kids for summer camp, tackling the yard, assorted Usborne Books & More tasks, and more, plus miscellaneous to do items. I’ll definitely be busy over the next few months!
Now you may be saying to yourself: “this sounds like more planning, not more doing. Where’s the action?” Well, I have been taking action, as well. I have finished typing up the original blog posts for A Life You Want, and typed up a couple of the articles I have written for it, as well. I have worked a bit on the kitchen. I have looked into financial aid for grad school. And I have called a potential school for Emily and gotten an application. And, though they’re not on the deadline list, I have two vendor events scheduled this week for Usborne Books & More: one today, and one on Friday evening (and I’m hoping Friday’s event will lead to bigger things, but we’ll have to see). It may not be as much as I would like, but it’s a start. And if I can keep going this week, I know I can make serious progress. With determination, I know I can even reach my deadline goal. And isn’t that the point? I work well with a deadline. So having one should help, right?
Along the way, I’ve already felt the pull to do the tasks that are later on my deadline calendar. And I knew that would be the hardest part. I want to do everything and get it done NOW! But that wasn’t working, and it’s not practical. So I’m using whatever willpower I have left to discipline myself and keep myself on track. With a little luck and determination I’ll be checking stuff off before I know it!