Stress has become my ever-present companion lately. Finances have definitely played a part, but added to money woes are more behavioral issues from Avery (especially by way of talking back and arguing about everything), a continuing lack of sleep (made worse by both kids being sick at the same time), and an ongoing frustration that I’m falling behind.
I had hoped to have my business paperwork done by now, but once again I found my prime productivity time eaten up by required sleep. Both Avery and Emily were sick, and as such woke up multiple times a night. Once they started sleeping better, Oliver started up with his nighttime whining. Needless to say, I haven’t gotten a great night sleep in quite some time. That means I’ve needed to go to bed earlier, which means I haven’t made nearly as much headway on my tasks as I would like. I know sleep is more important, but that doesn’t mean I’m happy about it.
I was able to sneak in a little (very little) research about blogging for others, but I didn’t get too far. And I’m concerned that if I can’t even find the time to research I won’t be able to actually do any work. That means I’m worrying again about paying bills, which is never fun. So far we’re squeaking by, but the next couple of months are going to be particularly tough. And I honestly don’t know what to do about it.
Avery’s attitude lately hasn’t helped matters. He seems fine at school and with Nana, but as soon as he’s home it’s back to arguing about everything (even things that really don’t matter for anything, even to him), talking back, a general bad attitude, and not listening when I tell him to do or not to do something. It’s been going on far too long, and nothing seems to be helping. I’m hoping it’s a phase, but even if it is, I’m getting tired of it. I know I need to work on my consistency of punishment and reactions, but it’s hard.
Despite all these stressors, I’m trying to stay positive. I’m taking a lot of deep breaths these days (and popping quite a few Tums), and I’m telling myself that it will get better. When I get stressed, I find the best solution for me is to formulate a game plan and put it into effect. If I can tweak the plans I had made, cut myself a little slack, and work on my time management, I can pull through. I know I’ll start sleeping better again soon; I’ve gone through rough patches before. And once I’m sleeping better the rest will start falling into place. I’ll have more patience to deal with Avery’s attitude (and a greater ability to be more consistent in my discipline). I won’t have to go to bed so early, which means more time to get my tasks done. And once I can get the tax paperwork settled, I’ll be able to move forward on my other projects and goals.
I need to stay positive. If I let the stress get to me, I’ll be in much worse shape. So, deep breaths. Lists up the wazoo to help clear my mind. A tweaked game plan. And a little patience, with myself most of all.